Relaxed (past) – “Don’t quit before the miracle happens.” – phrase used in AA. I distinctly remember the first time I decided I wasn’t going to go to meetings for a while and didn’t know if I was going to come back after I gave birth.. I was VERY pregnant, sitting in a meeting withContinue reading “Skeletons Part 2.12 – My Recovery Relaxed”
Author Archives: Holly "Pixie" Hust
My Relapse – Part 3
Relapse #3: I don’t remember what I had but I want to say it was another ½ mini-box of wine? Or maybe 2 mini bottles from a 4 pack? Weird I don’t know specifics because this was the least I had drank of all the relapses since my DUI. Hubs came home earlier than expected.Continue reading “My Relapse – Part 3”
My Relapse – Part 2
Relapse #2: I decided I’d do one final “test.” It’s a common test we lushes like to take and it’s rather quite simple for normal drinkers to do: have just ONE drink and that be all. Since I had a suspended license, I walked up to the liquor store and bought 2 of those mini fridgeContinue reading “My Relapse – Part 2”
Skeletons 2.9 – The Relapse Series – Part 1
Relapse (past): The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker. The persistence of this illusion is astonishing. Many pursue it into the gates of insanity or death. (BB, Chapter 3, pg. 30) Here’s the bottom line: I don’t remember my very first sobrietyContinue reading “Skeletons 2.9 – The Relapse Series – Part 1”
Skeletons 2.8 – My Recovery Requisite
Requisite (Past): The only requirement for membership is the desire to stop drinking (Tradition 3, BB, pg 139) After my second DUI, I was told 2 things: I had to stop drinking and I had to wait 6 months (or a year) to resume efforts to get pregnant. I wasn’t asked. I was told. NoContinue reading “Skeletons 2.8 – My Recovery Requisite”
My Reprimands – Part 4
I wrote some amends letters after my reprimands of SD2 and the last one was to myself (second person to first person,) and I ended it with this: “Is that all? You done now? Because I can think of some messed up stuff you did to other guys too, or have you forgotten? I hopeContinue reading “My Reprimands – Part 4”
My Reprimands – Part 3
Reprimand for Misdemeanor #2 – 2012: My sentencing required a lot from me over the course of the next 18 months and, as previously mentioned, one of those things was spending 2 weekends on lock down. I find it hard to hold back telling you everything about this experience so here’s a sub-list of theContinue reading “My Reprimands – Part 3”
My Reprimands – Part 2
Misdemeanor#2 – 2012: The Arrest, Drunk Tank and Post Drunk Tank: Drove with one hand over one eye and was pulled over a mile from my destination when I was informed that a concerned motorist had reported me. I didn’t bother attempting to lie. I was hammered. I knew I was screwed and didn’t evenContinue reading “My Reprimands – Part 2”
My Reprimands – Part 1
Reprimand(s) #1 – February, 2005: The Drunk Tank and Community Service Highlights from my arrest, “the tank” and community service: Cuffed and chatting* with the young officer en route to jail, I BRIEFLY considered offering him sexual favors if he’d just let me go.** I said brief, people. It was like “I wonder if…” and then aContinue reading “My Reprimands – Part 1”
The Reprimand Series
All of that drunk driving I did eventually caught up to me…twice…and I’m lucky it wasn’t more. I’m even luckier that I never seriously harmed or killed anybody or myself. I swallowed the bitter pills of humiliation and shame as I went about righting my wrongs. I paid my debts to society by spending aContinue reading “The Reprimand Series”
My Recovery Revealed 