“Who cares to admit complete defeat? Practically no one, of course.” Twelve Steps & Twelve Traditions, pg. 21. Step One is this: “We admitted we were powerless over alcohol – that our lives had become unmanageable.” I didn’t know it then but March 29, 2012, I took my last drink. I had just been caughtContinue reading “Skeletons 3.9 – My Relinquishing”
Author Archives: Holly "Pixie" Hust
My Rationalization
I am finally ready to start blogging again. I have wanted to return to it for a long time but I had to go through some stuff and I simply wasn’t capable. I’ll tell you ALL about it. For now, I need to clean out my drafts folder. I started this post with just aContinue reading “My Rationalization”
God Shots #2
I have been wanting to tell this story for a long time but I haven’t been in my right mind for 13 months (more on THAT in future posts, stay tuned!) What I’m about to tell you actually took place almost 2 years ago but I was waiting for the perfect time to share itContinue reading “God Shots #2”
God Shot #1
What is a “God Shot?” A God Shot is when something happens in our lives that results in an unexpected blessing or lesson learned; one that can only be defined as “divine intervention” or a “divine appointment.” These experiences can be described as ordained coincidences, messages from others or sometimes an intuitive thought that hadContinue reading “God Shot #1”
Skeletons 3.7: My Reactiveness – Part 2
Something had to change. At this point, I knew that my girls were not returning back to school any time soon and my new facial business that I had JUST opened in January was going to remain closed for an undetermined amount of time. Once again, I felt lost and defeated.
Skeletons 3.6: My Reactiveness -Part 1
Up until 3 months ago, I was still struggling with my anger management. While I was no longer experiencing episodes of rage, I was still allowing my emotions to get the best of me; leaving me filled with tremendous guilt, shame, and remorse.
My Recovery Restored
**This was originally posted August, 2020** Disclaimer: I started this post just over a year ago. After reading what I started, I’ve decided to keep my original words and just add to it, as I’m feeling similar feelings today, except, for totally different reasons. I am overwhelmed with feelings today. Lots of feelings ranging fromContinue reading “My Recovery Restored”
My Recovery Rock Bottom – Part 4
When I first quit drinking 8 years ago, it wasn’t by choice. I was an alcoholic who knew deep down I could never drink again but I refused to accept it. I did not want to be done for good and therefore, wanted to protect my right to drink by not being honest about howContinue reading “My Recovery Rock Bottom – Part 4”
My Recovery Rock Bottom – Part 3
“You wouldn’t know, you’re not a mother.” My friend was right. She was a mom in the depths of toddler hell and I was childless. What you don’t know is, I had suffered a miscarriage less than 6 months prior and was actively trying to get pregnant again – I wanted to be a motherContinue reading “My Recovery Rock Bottom – Part 3”
My Recovery Rock Bottom -Part 2
This is 1 of a 5 part series. Some have been password protected. I was moving up the ranks in my drinking career when my besties started having babies. While they navigated through raising little humans, I was raising hell on my path of self-destruction. When they complained about the woes of motherhood and nursingContinue reading “My Recovery Rock Bottom -Part 2”
My Recovery Revealed 