Author Archives: Holly "Pixie" Hust

This was orginially published January 25, 2018. Recollection: “We shall not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.” (The Promises, BB pg.83) It’s been over a week since I posted and not gonna lie (NGL) I allllllmost decided that I was going to stop this whole thing all together.  I’m notContinue reading “Skeletons 1.5 – My Recollection”

This was originally published on January 9, 2018. **Disclaimer: I had a plan for my token posts. I had a timeline. But it wasn’t in line with God’s plan and since his plans are way better than mine, I’m not going to kick myself for failing to sticking to it.  While I’d like to sayContinue reading “My Recovery Rewind – Part 4”

This was originally published on January 4, 2018. It is Part 2 of a 6 part series. 30 days – 1 Month: for the one solid month I did stay sober after the drink was “taken away from me.” It’s no surprise I was drinking in a matter of days shortly after getting this token.Continue reading “My Recovery Rewind – Part 2”

This was originally posted on January 1, 2018. I no longer identify with these feelings, as I’m in a totally different place today. That said, I’d like to report that God has graciously allowed me to have both but in His Way, not mine. Recovery Reconsidered: Their Way, My Way, or Both?  As previously mentioned,Continue reading “Skeletons 1.4 – My Recovery Reconsidered”

Even though I am woman in recovery from alcoholism and don’t drink, I’m still a human being just like everyone else and I make mistakes; we are all flawed, us homo sapiens. The only difference between then and now is that my sometimes poor decisions are no longer to my and my loved ones detrimentContinue reading “Random Recovery Thoughts”

This was originally pusblished on December 31, 2017.  I am posting it early because hellloooo, Gidget is going to be coming back soon.  And I realized that I never got around to posting all of her antics in 2019.  So, with that said, read the content below and then go click on “Gidget the Elf”Continue reading “Disclaimer”

This was orginially published on November 25, 2017. Rebellion (past): “We are only as sick as our secrets.”  Confession: I’m kiiiiiiind of a hoarder.  But there are 2 very valid reasons for this: 1) I’m extremely sentimental and 2) I think about the “what ifs” and decide “okay, one last time. If it’s still in hereContinue reading “Skeletons 1.3 – My Rebellion”

This was originally published on November 16, 2017.  I thought about editing this piece due to the “radical language” but I’m leaving it because it shows just how jacked my brain was at the time.  So grateful to not be living in this headspace anymore.  That said, I do, however, stand by my feelings surroundingContinue reading “Skeletons 1.2 – My Recovery Relinquished”

Originally published November 14, 2017 Realization: The Story of My Life – Before & After Recovery These shoes have kept finding their way into every closet I’ve had for the past 8 years or longer. It occurred to me that I was drunk at least once in every single pair. That made it very easyContinue reading “Skeletons 1.1 – My Realization”

For the remainder of the year, I’ll be republishing posts. This was my very first blog post published on November 13, 2017. I finally tackled the daunting task of purging, sorting and organizing my over cluttered closet yesterday. That shit show gave me a small dose of anxiety every time I walked in. It progressivelyContinue reading “A Rebel is Coming Out (of the Closet)”