My Recovery Rewind – Part 5

img_84801 year (x2): For the 2 sponsors (S1&S2) I have had in my recovery.  Are either of them my sponsor now? No.* However, like my birdies, without them, I wouldn’t be the woman I am today. I wanted to dedicate this post to them with both affirmations and amends but after composing S1 and starting S2, I realized most of you likely don’t GAF which is why I have added a new page to my menu titled “Letters.” Yes, I know amends should be made “to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others” (BB, pg. 59) but as I have said before, I am far better expressing myself in writing and I would hope Bill & Bob would approve. **UPDATE 9 months later** Okay, actually, they may have given me the side-eye so I have changed my mind and will do as many amends in person as possible.

img_84814 years**: For my 4 cousins on my dad’s side of the family.  3 sets of sisters born to 3 brothers. Us 6 chicks are all different but there’s definitely one thing we all have in common and that is that we are all uniquely awesome in our own special ways and I have something I want to say to each of you. Go to the Letters page to read, dear cousins of mine ( and anyone else who cares.)

I do want to say one thing here to the 4 of you lovely ladies: no doubt each of you witnessed me in the throws of my alcoholism.  I was a loud, obnoxious drunk and I’m sorry if it seemed I was always trying to be the center of attention.  It annoys me to no end that that has been in my make-up and more so than ever, I’m really trying to change that.  If I EVER hurt you as a result of my drinking, I encourage you to let me know so that I can wipe that slate clean once and for all.

#morewillberevealed

 

Published by Holly "Pixie" Hust

I am a "12 Stepper" who also practices harm reduction recovery in sunny southern California. I am a wife and mother who strives to help other women discover their relationship with alcohol and how they can live their best lives without it.

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