Random Recovery Thoughts

Even though I am woman in recovery from alcoholism and don’t drink, I’m still a human being just like everyone else and I make mistakes; we are all flawed, us homo sapiens. The only difference between then and now is that my sometimes poor decisions are no longer to my and my loved ones detrimentContinue reading “Random Recovery Thoughts”

Skeletons 1.3 – My Rebellion

This was orginially published on November 25, 2017. Rebellion (past): “We are only as sick as our secrets.”  Confession: I’m kiiiiiiind of a hoarder.  But there are 2 very valid reasons for this: 1) I’m extremely sentimental and 2) I think about the “what ifs” and decide “okay, one last time. If it’s still in hereContinue reading “Skeletons 1.3 – My Rebellion”

Skeletons 1.2 – My Recovery Relinquished

This was originally published on November 16, 2017.  I thought about editing this piece due to the “radical language” but I’m leaving it because it shows just how jacked my brain was at the time.  So grateful to not be living in this headspace anymore.  That said, I do, however, stand by my feelings surroundingContinue reading “Skeletons 1.2 – My Recovery Relinquished”

Skeletons 1.1 – My Realization

Originally published November 14, 2017 Realization: The Story of My Life – Before & After Recovery These shoes have kept finding their way into every closet I’ve had for the past 8 years or longer. It occurred to me that I was drunk at least once in every single pair. That made it very easyContinue reading “Skeletons 1.1 – My Realization”

A Rebel is Coming Out (of the Closet)

For the remainder of the year, I’ll be republishing posts. This was my very first blog post published on November 13, 2017. I finally tackled the daunting task of purging, sorting and organizing my over cluttered closet yesterday. That shit show gave me a small dose of anxiety every time I walked in. It progressivelyContinue reading “A Rebel is Coming Out (of the Closet)”

Skeletons 3.8: My Reactiveness – Part 3

When I had to quit drinking, I said “fine, but you aren’t gonna take the cigs away, it’s all I have now.” So, I’ve been a closet smoker, off and on (but mostly on) for the past 8+ years.  After each pregnancy, I swore I wouldn’t go back but of course, all it took wasContinue reading “Skeletons 3.8: My Reactiveness – Part 3”

My Reassurance

I wrote this post on December 10, 2018.  I can’t tell you what led up to me stumbling across this post today but for what it’s worth, this is a MAJOR God shot and another confirmation that I am exactly where I need to be. There is nothing wrong with me and I’m okay.  InContinue reading “My Reassurance”

My Recovery Rock Bottom – Part 1

Alcohol was my friend for a very long time.  When I was in outpatient rehab 9 years ago, I had to write a letter to my “friend,” explaining why we were no longer compatible with each other.  At the time, I was just placating – I really had no intentions of saying good bye forever,Continue reading “My Recovery Rock Bottom – Part 1”