Just like when I quit drinking, it didn’t last long with the weed either.
August 18, 2021
It’s been 3 months since I have journaled. I guess you can say I have become very complacent and I have been on the verge of depression – without even realizing it. Today I begin again. Wait, A2 is up and wants to hang out. So real quick – it has become clear to me that God is working on my vanity. I can write more about it later but this is good. Thank you, God, for clarity.
August 19, 2021
This morning’s devotional was about choosing the right church. I love the church we go to. I was reminded of a prayer request I had been bringing to God and that is that we go to church as a family. Well, we haven’t been consistent yet, but I can confidently say that God did answer my prayer because H is now willing to go as a family as long as it’s the 8:30 service. Praise the Lord! I pray we can start being consistent starting this weekend. Sooooo, what else do I need to update? Life is in session. I still have 20 pounds to lose and I have been super hard on myself and frustrated over it. I haven’t been dieting consistently or working out. It’s been a challenge due to scheduling or just simply lacking motivation. But God has been working on my vanity and teaching me to accept myself for what I look like now and reminding me that there are more important things in life. My house is always a mess and I’m trying to keep up. I decided I’m not going to work my biz for the time being and just focus on myself and my family. My family is the most important thing to me & I must be present for them. I’m still smoking weed and that has NOT been an issue for quite a while now. I’m so happy. I am still smoking cigs too and that I am feeling terrible about. I’m going to ask for Chantix again when I see my psych today. God please help me quit smoking. I know I don’t pray enough for that. I have so many prayers…where is my prayer journal? I must find it. Okay, enough journaling for now. Here’s to Thursday!
Will I ever quit?
What do you think?
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